Monday, January 31, 2011
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Tattoo Trades :)
Just to let you know, I trade tattoos for photoshoots.... I have been approached by many tattoo artist and tattoo shops over the years and I decided then, that I'd love to sport the art of someone whose art I've capture with my lens :) Here is an example of my work :)
Friday, January 21, 2011
On the Cholo Syndrome
Today, I was having trouble looking over old videos of him. I thought, for a second, that it wouldn't hurt as much as it did. All the time we spent together seems like a old dream... I wonder if his love was ever real. I mean genuine. He got my name tattooed, asked me to marry him (more than once)... I thought that our lives were perfect. I guess it's healthy to feel bad about the situation (even now). I need to work through all these feelings (I think) to be able to move on without doubt and resentment.
I've had some fucked up things happen to me in the past... I've been through heartbreak before, you know... I got through it... I cried it out, talked it out and even got a tattoo to help me realize I was "still standing" despite what had occurred.... despite the fact that I was dying inside. I had felt soooooo betrayed and it happened again.... the vato that I was with for 5 fucken years just bitched out on me... just like that. Couldn't face me... won't tell me that he cheated on me.... that jerk... haha. I'm a big girl and like my lil sobrina reminds me "Big girls, don't cry" :) (unless they are pedas as fuck and she is bumping some Vicente Fernandez :))
Me and my sisters call it the "cholo syndrome"... a vato goes up to an unsuspecting mujer and he pimps himself out to her. If she has an income, he will live off of her. I dunno if this is true everywhere, but it seems like it's strong here in the 509. Unfortunately, our society has taught young brown men, that their place is in the pinta or as a full time cholo... I dont know too many vato locos that work a fulltime job, go to school and provide for their familias....
The cholo syndrome prevents that....
It causes them to believe that they are alone- may be cold to a sincere mujer and loyal only to the tecatos/pandilleros that line the streets (seeking love in empty relationships with like-minded lost boys)... and when they get caught up, it's la mujer or their mothers to the rescue... la mujer is expected to "hold it down" while her "street soldier" does his time... she takes on his name... he needs her for fuckin and a warm bed.... she needs him because she is either insecure/broken, is still a lil ass girl (under 18) or hasn't learned her lessons from the last idiots that took advantage of her...
Was I a victim? Shit, if I was, it was my own fault... with this vato... I thought I had it all... He was nurturing, intelligent and mine (I told myself)... in reality- I dodged a bullet... He was actually selfish, a manipulator and a cheater... Neta, it prolly wouldnt have been a strong union and I realized its because I still havent unlearned the junk from the last relationship. I carry bullshit from vato to vato... chale... like I told him... I do better by myself... and I do... Fuck yeah I do....
I've been warned about posting personal shit from my life on the net... these crazy psycho bitches learn everything I post and blast me on the net... I use to have a blog I kept private, pero... I love to document and share barrio culture and I think it was about time I created this blog... I figure-- Barrio Culture that affect my life...
Talking to my girls over the years, the interest in cholos has steadily declined. Little by little my girls see that there is nothing to profit from a relationship like this... que tristeza... because these guys are fine as hell... I love the way a cholo dresses, BUT
...for the first time in my life, I am actually telling friends to hook me up with "squares"... I'll take an L7 any day :) Before a bald head and dickies was a requirement.... now, avato has to have a job to get my number....
well... blah-blah.... It's getting late... and I gotta be up in a few hours... gotta pay some bills, drive noah to school... head out to get tatted up and then maybe to a movie with a homeboy :)
Stay up everyone! Aqui los dejo con unas firme flickas (all done by me-hehehe):
(above is the homie Serio, the one whose gonna tat me up today... check out his shop in Tappas-STREET INK)
I've had some fucked up things happen to me in the past... I've been through heartbreak before, you know... I got through it... I cried it out, talked it out and even got a tattoo to help me realize I was "still standing" despite what had occurred.... despite the fact that I was dying inside. I had felt soooooo betrayed and it happened again.... the vato that I was with for 5 fucken years just bitched out on me... just like that. Couldn't face me... won't tell me that he cheated on me.... that jerk... haha. I'm a big girl and like my lil sobrina reminds me "Big girls, don't cry" :) (unless they are pedas as fuck and she is bumping some Vicente Fernandez :))
dedication: "Aca Entre Nos"
Me and my sisters call it the "cholo syndrome"... a vato goes up to an unsuspecting mujer and he pimps himself out to her. If she has an income, he will live off of her. I dunno if this is true everywhere, but it seems like it's strong here in the 509. Unfortunately, our society has taught young brown men, that their place is in the pinta or as a full time cholo... I dont know too many vato locos that work a fulltime job, go to school and provide for their familias....
The cholo syndrome prevents that....
It causes them to believe that they are alone- may be cold to a sincere mujer and loyal only to the tecatos/pandilleros that line the streets (seeking love in empty relationships with like-minded lost boys)... and when they get caught up, it's la mujer or their mothers to the rescue... la mujer is expected to "hold it down" while her "street soldier" does his time... she takes on his name... he needs her for fuckin and a warm bed.... she needs him because she is either insecure/broken, is still a lil ass girl (under 18) or hasn't learned her lessons from the last idiots that took advantage of her...
Was I a victim? Shit, if I was, it was my own fault... with this vato... I thought I had it all... He was nurturing, intelligent and mine (I told myself)... in reality- I dodged a bullet... He was actually selfish, a manipulator and a cheater... Neta, it prolly wouldnt have been a strong union and I realized its because I still havent unlearned the junk from the last relationship. I carry bullshit from vato to vato... chale... like I told him... I do better by myself... and I do... Fuck yeah I do....
I've been warned about posting personal shit from my life on the net... these crazy psycho bitches learn everything I post and blast me on the net... I use to have a blog I kept private, pero... I love to document and share barrio culture and I think it was about time I created this blog... I figure-- Barrio Culture that affect my life...
Talking to my girls over the years, the interest in cholos has steadily declined. Little by little my girls see that there is nothing to profit from a relationship like this... que tristeza... because these guys are fine as hell... I love the way a cholo dresses, BUT
...for the first time in my life, I am actually telling friends to hook me up with "squares"... I'll take an L7 any day :) Before a bald head and dickies was a requirement.... now, avato has to have a job to get my number....
well... blah-blah.... It's getting late... and I gotta be up in a few hours... gotta pay some bills, drive noah to school... head out to get tatted up and then maybe to a movie with a homeboy :)
Stay up everyone! Aqui los dejo con unas firme flickas (all done by me-hehehe):
(above is the homie Serio, the one whose gonna tat me up today... check out his shop in Tappas-STREET INK)
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
In Loving Memory Project
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In Loving Memory Project
A collaboration effort between firme509.com studios and northwestgangs.com
Collecting images to record and show respect to fallen homies. We are now opening a “call out” to join the project.
If you have had a dear friend/homie/family member pass away (keyword being homie) and would like to show respect to your fallen soldier, by remembering them and joining this project- contact waxicana@hotmail.com. Firme509.com Studios will being setting up photoshoots at gravesites, and sites where memorial alters have been set up… also collecting RIP tattoos…. The purpose of this project is simply to show respect to those who have lost their lives and document the homies that carry on their memory.
Photos to be shared by Brad of northwestgangs.com and Nena of firme509.com studios/esafirmehyna.com/digitalchola.com
HERE’S WHAT YOU DO:
e-mail Waxicana@hotmail.com and include the following: your name/tag name, phone number, best time to call, who you would like remembered (include as much information as you can), who will be in the photoshoot and we will get back to you as soon as possible.
For more information, call or text Nena at 509.910.2881
Also FYI, there is NEVER a charge to document a homies funeral in the Yakima Valley…. Funeral shoots are free of charge in the Valley… If you would like prints, contact me for pricing. Thank you!
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Props to Viviana Ramirez
It seems like its always a joke, when you see a chola in the media. They(we) are portrayed as clowns, as ignorant lil welfare cases, who don't grab the English or Spanish language. I search the internet everyday for cholas who represent the culture at its truest form. On one of my journeys I ran across this talented Chicana from the Southwest.
Check out her brilliant collection:
Check out her brilliant collection:
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